On my porch ....

I did some mathematical, statistical, empirical, and cost benefit analysis of whether or not I should begin studying for the bar exam now, before results come out in May. I also got the opinion of a woman of great opinion and seems I have the humanistic and socialistic perspective on my decision.

Why would I study something I don't have to study? Several reasons. After coming within 27 points of passing the bar exam but not passing, I realize its rather possible to not pass the damn thing. I have to allow for that possibility, empirically speaking of course.

The thing is, its not very productive to figure out a plan of action and build a task list when you are under the emotional and social stress of not passing the bar exam and knowing you are going back into that damn room. Quitting is simply not an option for me so I will go back in the room until its done. Period.

So having a "Plan B" well in advance is the best way to drive through the let down and drama of not finding your name on the pass list. Well perhaps a Plan C.

There are something like 66 days until results come out and that means 66 days of preparation that can be banked which will take the strain off the limited time I would have between May 15 and July 26 to get my collective shit together.

I have a pretty long commute every weekday to the office and back home. On a busy traffic day that might mean 2 1/2 hours listening to traffic reports and music. Well I already know the traffic sucks thank you. The music is the same 16 songs over and over.

So I am using my commute time to re-review my substantive law lectures. There are about 54 hours of lectures covering the bar exam law. That means I can passively re-review the substantive law easily over the next 66 days - twice even ! (No, I'm not that sick, but its possible).

Come May 15, if it turns out I am going back in July I will have saved myself from having to re-do all the lectures as part of my Plan C bar review. And all I had to do is drive to work and home. If I pass then I learn the law better and I can stop studying on May 15. Its a win win.

Studying now is not a reflection of my feelings about "February" in any way. I am being proactive. Thats 54 hours of bar review I already completed before the bar review program even begins.

But I'm not justifying anything here. Its my porch after all...